the diary labeled 1998-2000...

In the midst of spring cleaning, I came across a diary labeled 1998 - 2000. It was my first poems diary. I had written dozens of poems, some of them are kiddish, and others are way too kiddish, but what amazes me is that I did manage to write a lot from 1998 - 2000, more than what I had written from 2001 - 2005.

Here are few of of them...

dear life... 

You gave me love

you made me happy

and you danced with me

in my celebrations

You brought me sadness 

you cried with me 

and you gave me warmth 

when I felt cold and lonely 

You taught me what's right

you gave me understanding 

and you never left me 

in my ups and downs 

I trust only you dear life 

for i know you'll stand with me 

till my end...

walking all alone...

It has been long

walking all alone.. 

In the moments when I'm sad

I find my loneliness cheering me up

In the moments when I'm happy

I find my shadow dancing with me

In the moments when I'm depressed

I find my thoughts lighting up my dreams

In the moments when I need to talk

I find my second self listening to me 

In the moments when I get carried away

I find my tears keeping me warm

The ups and downs of life

do not seem to matter

do not seem to affect

The longer I'm sad

the more I praise the companionship

of my loneliness

I catch the ways my shadow dances

for all those moments

when I'm happy 

The more I feel depressed

The more I open my mind to thoughts

and I enjoy the company

For none but my second self

will stand with me

till my end

But I try to run away from tears

for they make me weak

the end is far

the journey has been long

and the roads never seem to end

For long I've been walking

all alone

and it seems for long 

I'll be walking all alone...

the wonder called "you"... 

let me swim 

in the ocean 

of ur eyes 

let me touch 

the tenderness 

of your face 

let me feel

the silk

of your arms 

let me smell 

the fragrance 

of your body 

let me taste 

the honey 

of your lips 

let me see 

the wonder 

called "you"... 

the spring... 

when the fragrance of flowers 

is everywhere 

and the fallen leaves 

cover the ground 

when the sun is mild 

and the fog has gone 

and the little birds 

are singing all around 

when the orion 

is slowly fading 

and the winter chills 

are not to be found 

and when every creature 

is in happiness 

the weather speaks 

the spring is here... 

nature speaks...

darkness has started 

spreading its arms 

sunlight is feebly 

touching me 

here i am again 

enjoying the cold breeze 

after a tiering day 

waiting for someone 

i don't know who 

few birds are passing by

and they seem to be asking me 

"why do you feel lonely?" 

I answer a smile

as I wave them goodbye

and in the arms of darkness

I see clouds glowing red 

as if blushing

after reading my mind... 

when i saw you... 

When I saw you 

I saw flowers 

that bloomed with your smile 

and colored my world 

and spread its fragrance 

that made me breathless 

in the breeze 

when you walked past me 

and clouded my mind 

with darkness of your hair

as if it rose over a sea 

as blue as your eyes 

under the moon 

which had the glow 

of your face 

and the lyrics 

of your body 

casted a spell on me...